I’m sitting here at the computer almost in tears because it was just that kind of day. My son is not yet potty trained but is at the stage that he now doesn’t like the feel of poop on his skin. For the last 3 days he’s been having diarrhea and has been taking his diaper off consistently leaving something for me to clean and sanitize. He was up to his old tricks again but this time took the pillow off the couch to wipe his bottom. Now I’m a little frazzled now because I need to clean my house (once again) and while all of this is going on baby is crying to a point that she threw up and my 2 year old daughter is just yelling and being very repetitive with her statements. I’m trying to gather the pillows so that I can throw them in the washer while holding baby and helping 2 year old. Now after I gave my son a bath got the two girls situated I started to get a migraine.
I wonder sometimes how life would be to have a typical child without any disabilities. I see people complaining about their kids and I can almost laugh at them because their kids are so easy. If they had to deal with constant (daily almost hourly) meltdowns and poop while still trying to maintain a clean home and raise well rounded children in the mist of chaos they wouldn’t complain so much. I see children my son’s age (4 1/2) sit down and enjoy a television show or mingle with other kids and wonder wow that kid looks easy because my son doesn’t sit he is constantly wondering and getting into things and he doesn’t like to interact with other kids. But in the midst of my pity party for myself and stress I still thank God.
My husband told me last night that there is a girl that use to work for him who is our age (31) and the doctors told her that she has cancer and gave her a certain amount of time to live. Now this girl has 3 kids like me. That was a reality check for me. I am too blessed to let things like poop and throw up stress me out. So as I’m writing this blog I am trying to get myself out of this funk. I thank God for my kids and family. And I am so fortunate to have a loving God that tells me to cast my cares on Him because He cares for me. How wonderful? Now I will meditate on His Word.
